.Friday, July 20, 2007 ' 9:55 PM Y
& your love is all i ever wanted
First of all, I’m sorry for not updating for so long. Been too busy preparing for SPEECH DAY! And yes. It’s today. And it’s finally ended. But still have one more thing to focus on the COMPETITION coming on 12 August.
Oh well, just something I’ve been wondering about lately. Have anyone felt like you care for a person. And in less then a year being separated, the person just forgets about you not knowing how much you care about the person? Well, I did. I met a girl who I think cares about me. Be there for me in times to come. Cheer me up when I’m down. Lend me an ear to listen to my problems. And lot more. I expected more from her. In fact, now I felt like she is just someone I just meet. Wonder what’s going on. She met some other girls now. And she hangs out with them not knowing how hard it was for me to forget it all. I treated her as a sister just the way she wanted me to. But I just felt like she isn’t appreciating it. What more to say? She’s now just like all the other girls to me who meet new friends and forget the old friends. I don’t know if everything you say was true. The part you say you miss me, the part you say you miss all the past we had together. Whatever you always say that you miss me and the things we did. I’m sick of it all already. Don’t you just notice it all, I’m just like an invisible girl to you. Well, you are not talking to me for sure. It’s been a long time since we talk. That’s the evidence that made me think about it all. I tried so hard to brighten my day everyday. But it turns out that the daily smile wasn’t a smile at all. The daily laughter was just a fake laugh to join in the fun. And the talks, is just a way to forget it all for a minute. I don’t know what is going on to me. I’ve been trying to run my own race and be myself. But all the plans changes half way just to spend a time to think about someone else other then myself. SIGH! I don’t want to talk about this anymore today. Let me just head off to my bed and sleep. Oh yes. I almost forget, no matter how hard I try to sleep it can hardly be a peaceful one. Most of the time I will end up crying for something but, I don’t know what.
EEEEEEEEEEEEEEERRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!
Forget it all!
Please!
I’m just a normal girl who makes mistakes and trying to lead a normal life!
To mom and dad please let me run my own race in sense that let me lead my own life.
To friends please forgive me if I did or say something wrong to you and hurt your feelings etc.
To the girl I’ve been talking about, I hope you know who you are. And I really hope you will appreciate me more and accept me the way I am. I really miss you and I really mean it. So, PLEASE!
.Sunday, July 15, 2007 ' 12:14 AM Y
& your love is all i ever wanted
Guess what. I finally spend time again with my parents. But this time we went for a movie only. Watch Harry Potter. Movie starts at 9.30 and ended at 12 midnight. Cool. Unfortunately, went home straight after that. Oh well, better than nothing. Just because I’m dying to watch it, my parents thought they would bring me there. So yes, we went to watch it. Oh well, that is just one side of the story. Tell you what, I’ve been so caught up, that I am so tired and sleepy like everyday. I went to school but I’m unable to concentrate. And lessons are getting boring. First maths lesson, the teacher I talk about, Ms Pang, she’s not teaching us for now. Well, unfortunately now is Ms Li, a trainee teacher I think. She teaches so slow and so hard to understand and oh well don’t forget that she talk so soft. When she is teaching, Nurul and I will be spending time laughing. Sometimes we laugh for no reason. And that makes us feel crazy. SIGH! Oh well, followed by science, bio. Mr Low lesson is so dry. But too bad I just got to open my eye big. Big enough so that I can concentrate. Just because a test is coming this Thursday and I’ve been failing bio for don’t know what reason. I have to wake up. SIGH! And don’t forget I seriously do not know why, but I’m so stress up with malay dance practices and speech day rehearsals, I just got to calm down. And just wish that all this will end as soon as possible. Also have another performance to focus on. The competition this August. Well, just got to you know, get used to all this. Oh well, July consist a lot of people birthday.
-Michele 01-07-07
-Netashya 07-07-07
-Hidayah 14-07-07
-Matessha 15-07-07
-Ruzana 22-07-07
Well, WISH YOU ALL A HAPPY BIRTHDAY! and anyone who I left out, same to you. Oh well, I better head off to bed now unless I want eye backs. Haha.
.Monday, July 9, 2007 ' 9:00 PM Y
& your love is all i ever wanted
I knew today will be a bad day. And really it is. First, I left my name tag in my father’s car. Then everything was as per normal. Laugh in class a lot with Nurul who is so so so crazy. But, until maths lesson which is the last period. I got headache and end up getting frustrated with whatever happening. Haiz. After that I got dance practice to attend to. And I have no idea why people have to be so bossy. Especially when there is practice without Abang Adam around. People just tend to over react and think they are so perfect and will do whatever they like. For goodness sake, no one is perfect. If someone is perfect name me who. I tell you, if you are able to answer me who. I bet to you that you are seriously weird and seriously do not know how to judge someone. Before you point things out, have you ever notice yourself? No offense. But if whoever reading this thinks that I offended you, I think you just got to move away your mouse and click on the X button. I just don’t know why certain people have to act in different way. It’s weird. How are you able to tell that you are not making any mistakes while others are when you only watch us but not yourself? Don’t you get it? You yourself are the one making the mistakes. You are the one out of the line and also different from others. Tell me, are you perfect? If you say you are, I guess you are a thick skin type of person. Let me do whatever I want. Let me know my mistakes but before you tell me, please tell yourself. I really feel like a no one right now. Tomorrow having another practice and yarh I think it will end up somehow like today. Right now, all I want to do is recall my steps and take a bathe. It’s been so humid today. And my hand are all sticky. CYA!
.Saturday, July 7, 2007 ' 10:05 PM Y
& your love is all i ever wanted
07.07.07 WHOOT! HAPPY BIRTHDAY NETASHYA! man i love you lots. you are gorgeous! you were always there for me. your party was awesome! well, hope you like the presents :D nothing much though. went home late. and mom scold and say this and that. haiz. once a while go back late also cannot. haiz. well, got to go and do some stuff now.
.Sunday, July 1, 2007 ' 12:28 AM Y
& your love is all i ever wanted
Went out today. First to Malaysia, then went to my aunt house in Singapore. Then watch hikmah. Aiyo. Tones of episode man. Lolx. After that we went to giant at the Old Tampinese Road. After that we went to fetch my brother at his friend house. Then wanted to get a bite but the shop we went was close. End up eating egg at home. Hahax. Nothing much happen though. By the way, WISHING MICHELE WONG A HAPPY BIRTHDAY! =) That’s all. Nothing much. =)
.Friday, June 29, 2007 ' 9:36 PM Y
& your love is all i ever wanted
SIGH! Alarm clock ring, off it and head back to sleep. My watch ring, off it head back to sleep. Mom wakes my up, head back to sleep. 5 minutes past 6, I woke up and my eyes were tiny winy small. SIGH! Straight away go bath. Then in the car on the way to school, tried sleeping but can’t. =( Haha. during class, I can’t concentrate. So sleepy. AIYO! After school had malay dance practice. But Abang Adam wasn’t there. We did stretches and hang around and talk only. See I would rather be sleeping la. SICKENING! Haha. After dance went to McDonald ate McSpicy. Haha. So fattening. Well, nothing much la for today. Just that. Got to head off to bed soon. So tired. Haha. Tata. =)
