HEY YA ALL! Sorry for not updating for so long. I just couldn’t think of what to write. Cause even if I update, the story will all be the same. Oh well, my holiday SUX! Most of the time, I rot at home only. The only time I go out was the day I bought my stuff. And then after that the day I went to watch fantastic four: rise of the silver surfer and finally the day I go to my cousin house and that’s it. It all happens in one day each. But most of the time I rot at home. My laptop is on for 24 hours. I’m online for 24 hours. But, guess what? I didn’t chat with anyone nor use the computer. Instead I was watching television. Haha. Lots and lots of movie and shows. I watch from HBO to star movie to star world to nickelodeon to Disney channel. And it repeats over and over again. SIGH! So, today is like the first day of second semester. We didn’t do much in school today. The best thing is that our form tutor has change. YEAH! And maths teacher too. Change to Ms Pang. (I think the spelling is that. not sure.) I love it so much. Haha. she teach very fast and she go more on detail and also understandable. Not like my previous maths teacher. He teaches so slowly but still don’t understand. Haha. Can understand but takes time. Haha. Hhhmmm what else? Oh ya. Tomorrow there will be art lesson. YEAH! I’m so looking forward. I love art. I have no idea why. =) Hehe. Seriously it’s weird. It seems like everyone in my family loves art. I think that is cause of my mom who also loves art and she took art when she was at our age. =) ok tomorrow also having home economics and we will be doing practical. =) Again! CAN’T WAIT! =)
Ok let’s get back to today and my life, have you ever felt like your house is like a hotel? Where when you go home no one is around and everyone can go home and go out whenever they want. Well, I went back home today hoping my brothers were around, but till now my brothers not home yet. But luckily my parents are home. =) These happen since the holiday begin. It sort of happens when everyone has their own plan and does whatever they want. I hate it so much. It’s like when my brothers not around my mom will ask me call them, sms them etc. and end up my brothers scolding me for no reason. Why do I have to be the youngest? Why do I have to be the only girl in the family? It’s just so sick. At times I just feel left out, miserable and sometimes I cry for no reason too. Have you ever stared into the air and out of the sudden memories appear and you just wish that it would be just like it now? Well, this happen to me so many times this holiday. Questions just pop up. People always think I get whatever I want and get the freedom to do anything I want. Well, it’s true but it isn’t as great as you think. People also think my life is like “PERFECT” and they want it to happen to them. Well, just so you know, it is not what you think. My parents get me whatever I want and the freedom to make me happy but for real, it doesn’t matter to me. All I need was time for us too spend time together; I need their support and courage. I appreciate it all but I need more than that. People always think my parents are great. They send me to school, sometimes fetch me, and send me to where I need to go. Well, they are not what you think they are. They go home from work and always felt tired. They hardly talk to us all. They sit and watch television with us and once the show finish, they go away. They do their own things. My dad will be in front of his laptop while my mom will be in her room watching television. And if you need to talk, you are the ones who need to approach them. Not like they ask you how is the day? etc. and even if we eat dinner or whatever it’s not like everyone using the dining table. Besides no one use it. We hardly eat together as a whole family. It’s like what is the point of having all this stuff? I don’t know. Too much questions to answer. So ya. I better get going. Go to bed.

HOPING THINGS WILL CHANGE~
HOPING THAT I WILL GET IT ALL BACK~