.Friday, July 20, 2007 ' 9:55 PM Y
& your love is all i ever wanted
First of all, I’m sorry for not updating for so long. Been too busy preparing for SPEECH DAY! And yes. It’s today. And it’s finally ended. But still have one more thing to focus on the COMPETITION coming on 12 August.
Oh well, just something I’ve been wondering about lately. Have anyone felt like you care for a person. And in less then a year being separated, the person just forgets about you not knowing how much you care about the person? Well, I did. I met a girl who I think cares about me. Be there for me in times to come. Cheer me up when I’m down. Lend me an ear to listen to my problems. And lot more. I expected more from her. In fact, now I felt like she is just someone I just meet. Wonder what’s going on. She met some other girls now. And she hangs out with them not knowing how hard it was for me to forget it all. I treated her as a sister just the way she wanted me to. But I just felt like she isn’t appreciating it. What more to say? She’s now just like all the other girls to me who meet new friends and forget the old friends. I don’t know if everything you say was true. The part you say you miss me, the part you say you miss all the past we had together. Whatever you always say that you miss me and the things we did. I’m sick of it all already. Don’t you just notice it all, I’m just like an invisible girl to you. Well, you are not talking to me for sure. It’s been a long time since we talk. That’s the evidence that made me think about it all. I tried so hard to brighten my day everyday. But it turns out that the daily smile wasn’t a smile at all. The daily laughter was just a fake laugh to join in the fun. And the talks, is just a way to forget it all for a minute. I don’t know what is going on to me. I’ve been trying to run my own race and be myself. But all the plans changes half way just to spend a time to think about someone else other then myself. SIGH! I don’t want to talk about this anymore today. Let me just head off to my bed and sleep. Oh yes. I almost forget, no matter how hard I try to sleep it can hardly be a peaceful one. Most of the time I will end up crying for something but, I don’t know what.
EEEEEEEEEEEEEEERRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!
Forget it all!
Please!
I’m just a normal girl who makes mistakes and trying to lead a normal life!
To mom and dad please let me run my own race in sense that let me lead my own life.
To friends please forgive me if I did or say something wrong to you and hurt your feelings etc.
To the girl I’ve been talking about, I hope you know who you are. And I really hope you will appreciate me more and accept me the way I am. I really miss you and I really mean it. So, PLEASE!
